aliah ah !

IM BACK?

2012-03-04T01:11:00.003+08:00

OK HI GUYS. I just visited my blog while trying to find some photos and then... it's been 3 months snice i last blogged. Today's Siti's Birthday wooohooooooooooooooooo

and yeah, i guess ill post about my bday in the next proper post but as you can see, ive no time now. Suddenly missed tumblr too, hmm let me check that now.

wait, is blogspot outdated now or is everyone still even blogging, what shld i do?

is there even anyone reading this?

Whatsup

2011-11-17T20:35:00.005+08:00

Whatsuppppppppppppppp [:

been a month since i blogged. Why ? Lazyyy.

Still lazy now, but let's just update for abit.

Mly Learning Journey

I think we are so pathetic, 'cause we've nvr been on an overseas trip w sch before except to M'sia. Usually it's some plantation and you name it. Anw, our Johore trip two days ago was boringgggggg. Except for th fact that we took a train to Johor which is quite cool. First time, hehe. Just went to some mangrove park, learnt to 'weave' a basket using rolled up newsppr, seafood dinner etc.

But omg i tell you th M'sia are like __________.

1) me siti syazana dayah were at th back while walking towards th park. And there were a few M'sians students, they were looking at us. We were trying to not attract attention and all but some of th girls were like "whatsup w their hair" Seriouslyyy, we all tied scorpion just to well be the same? I mean come on, am i even vain -.- wahh.

2) at baskin robbins, th guy didnt even understand or know how to converse well in eng and got impatient and like hung ard doing no shit, aft i ordered few mins ltr then started to scoop our ice cream. Wah bad service & attitude.

3) at th bread shop, we were like taking bread and putting on our tray and this guy and 2 women who wear scarves working there suddenly started singing and talking loudly saying things like "speaking" obvsly directed at us. I mean wtf, we didnt even bother you. I just wanted to choose my damn bread because im hungry.

I AM SO MAD. I mean we didnt even like show off or like 'speakingly' talk to them in some bitchy eng. We kept our mouth damn shut and just did our things. Srsly, aft this experience, ive got no respect for them. Despite their attitude, i still said things like excuse and please. Wah, srsly, stop discriminating guyz. -.- fu.

Holiday

Wahh my savings left like almost $50. HELPPP ): but itsokay bought alot of things / presents for my dear relatives, i guess you gotta give to ppl you love too. Am excited for my 2work attachments - childcare & zoo. We get both cip hours and paid, ard $20 a day for zoo and $ for childcare. Working w hannah and nazlah for the most part. Cant wait !

Almost everyday ill be gg to sch for camp meetings, consultatns, classes etc. But it's all good.

My beloved idol

Guezzz whatttt my mother freaking go and dlt ALL videos of my beloved idol at the concert omg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! do you have any idea how happy i am whenever i watch it ? + its my first concert w friends, and my first time seeing him + ive nvr been crazy abt anyone before + the vid damn clear like ^&** + i was sitting at th front !!!! Omg, im so so depressed, but itsokay my mum shall buy me a DVD, which ive nvr considered of buying coz its like a waste of $$ and so on. But my vids....... so precious i wna cry..... hah.

O lvl HMT

Finally, had my first o lvl ppr. There were things like barcodes and all. Was so glad i studied and memorised peribhs only th day before 'cause when i get th ppr, wahh i rmmbr everything. Last min revision works, thank God. (: But ppr 1 was aaah i hope wont fail. I neeeeed my distinctn so i dont have to take MT in jc, that is if i get into one.

Im beginning to start slacking agn. It's like when youre mugging... time is nvr enough but i still slack. So i dont think i have enough time to waste right now to have new blogskin 'cause its so hard to find a decent one altho current one rlly sucks in terms of font etc.

And i have this weird creepy feeling i have to get over my fears of roller coasters. Debby and siti recently got over theirs and took the omg worse roller coasters at USS. When debby cried during flying fox when i didnt. And that siti during high elements, she just shaked too much. Haha. So i shld be alright right ? Haiz. 'cause i think we're gg to the ferrari amusement park at abu dhabi. God help me.

Anw, im chosen as SFA for sec 1 camp. HAPPYYYY. I thought usually those awesome councillors will get, but anw im thankful. Altho im pressurised 'cause there's vanessa, yi ai, angeline, sharon, etc who are either v firm / likeable w juniors etc. Haiz, i hope my class will be th top half and that i get an awesome SFA partner whom i can work well w too.

So i guess my near future's kinda exciting.. except that my studies is still..... haiz. you guys have a nice day. Cheers. Haha.

ffff

2011-10-13T22:13:00.002+08:00

I'm a HOPELESS FAILURE.

Honestly, i think as a person, ive nvr been in a worse state before.

My teachers are gna hate me and i hate myself.

Gotta be disciplined.

An only child, but a letdown haiz.

random info i saw

2011-10-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

Paris, London, New York ... Singapore?

According to a survey by Global Language Monitor, Singapore -- a city where most of its residents' default attire is a pair of slippers and a tank top -- is becoming quite the global fashion capital.

Based on Narrative Tracking Technology which analyzes the Internet, blogosphere, print and electronic media, as well as new social media sources (such as Facebook and Twitter), Singapore has broken into the top 10 list of 2011's fashion capitals, landing at the no.8 position.

2011-10-02T23:55:00.002+08:00

QUICK UPDATE.

I recieved 50 bucks yest and saved ard 15 bucks from sch money, and today they are all GONE. -.- yeah and fckny lost my ezlink today. Gna renew w/o telling mum.

Plus, my hardwork100%effort amaths 6 pgs hw, committed suicide and dropped into airport departure hall. Ughhhhhhhhhhhh. Shant study at that place anymore. Haha.

Plus, ATL concert in 3 days and im not gg !!!!!!!!!!! 'cause exam period, but what, th ticket is like less than $100 ?????

Oh God. Nvm, take it as a punishment for failing FAR TOO MANY SUBJECTS, thats why i aint blogging been depressed but still lazy as ever. So if you do well in exams, honestly dont say it to my face. Pisses me off these days.

Wah, S'pore has so many awesome concerts. Saw westlife just now. And tesya + sab + deb's clique were all there studying. ehhe.

See you.

2011-09-10T18:27:00.001+08:00

I need a new skin, 'causee this current one's making my post all over th place. As in for th alignment, font size and colour etc. Huda used to make for me long ago but now tooo lazy. Ahhhh troublesome~

fail

2011-09-08T23:55:00.002+08:00

Everyone chose an angmoh country haiz but CD chose an asian - S'pore. Hehe.

____________________________________________

When you just had a 'fail' activity and everybody laugh thinking how silly it is, it's alright.
But when it's alrdy a 'fail' thing and th closure of at atmosphere is awkward among everyone, then wahhhh, that's epic fail.
Ive just experienced an epic fail experience. Ok, sorry just jakun.

Just fyi, according to views, each post in my blog is viewed ard 12 times. Cool ?

Anw, jln raye was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ttm.
They are the best <3

2011-09-05T14:36:00.003+08:00

Whuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, i feel cheated. Dont do this to me. ))))))):

Anw, did i mention aft xcountry me vanessa gisella waited for abt 45 mins for a frigging taxi ?!

We literally walk ard th area for taxis. In the end, booked one. When th taxi came, it went in th condo, not outside. Then we had to run in to chase aft. Hahahaha, damn funny.

K done.

update

2011-09-02T13:38:00.015+08:00

Whoa, it's September alrdy. I bet this one wk holiday gna end fast. Aww.

Hmm, let me just briefly update on what ive been doing ?

See my last year's status there. HAHA. Wtf, 'cause i didnt run. Instead man interact's stall. Th previous day me nazlah agnes and hannah went Giant to buy $50+ worth of tidbits. There were soo many bags like 12 ? And then went ikea. Our ikea trolley was instead filled w tidbits and i only bought one magazine holder there, HAHA. Anw... xcountry, next year Ill run ? *scratches chin*

Damn this blogger cant colour font >:(

Hamizul deb all came to my crib, wahhhhh damn funny sia. Then right, my mother belanje them at pond there. First time, th guys were super shy, which ive nvr seen them like. Then when my mum and stepdad left, they finished all th food, pretending to be full earlier. Wahh, srslyyy. Hahahahhahahaha. Ok.

Azyan came today, and I got my face towel at last yay. Oh and my yumyum chicken, hehe. I didnt know th gym will be damn crowded, omg.... Okay, anw had fun today. (: happyhappyhappy

From th start, we became close 'cause we lived near. I used to feel like youre clinging at first, but then not anymore. I can see youre happier w better closer friends now. Th way they make you laugh, they complement you well, i dont. Ive cried many times, because im so insecure abt our friendship, and you did too.You must be weary now, right ? Anw, im glad youve got better friends to replace me now, and that we're not best, er, close friends anymore. Idw to keep thinking.Youre perfect, im too needy. I app our memories where we used to have th perfect chemistry, when you gave wonderful gifts, been a great comfort. Anw im kinda happy 'cause now i know im not as impt anymore, and so i dont have to worry much right. 'cause i dont matter much so i shouldnt care so i wouldnt be hurt overthinking. Everyone's independent, it's whether you want to be or not. And im fine w th way i am. I guess. We're friends. We learn. It's alright. These are my thoughts and Im done thinking.

( sorry guys, but if you havent notice, i do think too much these days, so im emo, haha. booo. Anw, yes im talking abt you, princess Tiana, haha. (: )

Okay, bye guyz. Jln raye tmrw. If i wake up early im gg cycling. These little excercises do help. Right ? Haha, i feel like some old woman, who do unnecessary excercises that doesnt actlly benefit. Have a nice day. *smiles*

syawal

2011-08-30T01:38:00.002+08:00

Tmrw is Hari Raya, and im not feeling anything.

1) i cant join my cousins and relatives as usual to go visiting because

2) ive to follow my stepdad and mum to my stepdad's side hses and idk them so it's

3) boring 'cause ive no one to talk to

4) not gg cemetery for raye agn

5) it's just not fun not gg w my cousins, argh.

Ever since you passed on dad, it's been diff for raye and i miss you so. I can feel th awkwardness sometimes among them, and your siblings always make me think of you, it's just.. i still rmmbr how you dont dare to step in our hse 'cause you thought youre not fit as a family to even me. ah, anw, i love you w my whole heart.

ANW SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN. HAVE FUN. THANKS FOR ALL TH MSGS, HAHA. We shall meet in the next syawal & ramadhan, insya'Allah. Woohoooo

(:

2011-08-29T02:37:00.001+08:00

"Your suffering now is a sign of your hard work
Everybody knows you tried Everybody knows it's alright"

Dont know why. but think this is meaningful altho it doesnt really link w me now, since im pretty much a loser and doesnt face any difficulties like i used to in nball.

first impression do matter

2011-08-27T22:19:00.005+08:00

Hi guyz.

Dont we look like a friggin' hi-5 concept-y ppl ? Haha. I think it's cool. Th museum is so fun, hehe it's my kind of place lol. Been years since i went to one i think. Th nudity is so funny, and there were many interesting hands on stuff. And got this lil guy he was afraid of us when we wanted to built train tracks w him ):

Primary sch friends just make me so goddamn happy. I just love them so much altho theyve got closer friends, majority of them. Anw, it was a blast. Meet you guys soon agn.

I didnt go out today to do my errands. Debby pangseh me ):

Tmrw im gg tho, thank god azwan is free to accompany me 'cause i thought of gg alone.

Anw, my Hari Raye shirt / baju are done. Got it tailored as usual but i didnt get to choose th silk or pattern or whatsoever. All's decided by my mum. Sooo i just hope i wont look that badcompared to my friends, haha. 'cause th modern baju look kinda cool, but yeah didnt buy.

Ohyeah i havent even buy any raye purse / footwear. Maybe i wont.

Okay then hopefully ill buy new cute cute stuff like bath towels. Mine's all rotten lol. And get my CD !!!! Ok, im gna bake marble cake, learning for first time so next year i can make one myself. Wish me luck yo you dawg.

Pisces can be so emotional, needy and intense that they can end up being a real drag to people around them. Pisces are easily lied to because they so want to believe. No matter how often they are led astray by empty promises, they keep the faith and push on toward their personal ideal. Their dreamy and impractical natures can be a source of distress to those close to them.

corrupt

2011-08-23T01:11:00.003+08:00

Everybody's become a victim of pressure, and then they give up.

low profile

2011-08-21T18:22:00.002+08:00

I feel that our generation is too exposed. We can know every little thing someone does because they tell everyone abt every second of their life that happened.

Idk why, but anw you guys have realised my fb is totally dead compared to last time, plus ive alrdy tweeted that i wont tweet anymore. It shall be where i stalk my fave celebs. Hehe.

I also did mention ill only be active here and tumblr where, for here, i doubt many read, and that on tumblr, theyre all strangers.

Anw, im sick of simpang bedok. And im behind time to study for CT, but heck just dont mention about CT to me, gets on my nerves. Ive been lazing ard, eating out w friends / cousins, baking cakes, not exercising.

Haha, i also dk what to do w my life. Lol.

Later im gna clean up my rm 100%. At last put up this rack that i bought last year.

Ohyeah, and i took my passport photo last few days, haha im so chubby, what w my straight hair now. It's been 2 months now.

becoz i think days are dragging by

2011-08-20T00:32:00.003+08:00

Now I understand what ppl meant by life sucks.

Besides hardship, it can just mean like there's rlly nth to look forward to.

Not anymore.

Everything is nothing, and then, at the end of the day, you can only depend on yourself.

Btw, they gna have their first solo concert in a few hours !! Only SGD111, like whaaaat, frkng cheap. Hm, it's alright. (:

ok, gnight you.

2011-08-11T22:14:00.003+08:00

Just feel like doing a quickie update

Yest right I stayed up late to research and do etc my speech writing then i didnt bring today. Nice. Shared w Manda. i owe her one man.

And, i im one of th top 5 scorer for th eng compre, yay. Im so happy, 'cause this is an improvement, since ive been stupid this whole year. Stilll is tho haha.

Butttt chem test lowest is 4. Yeah that shld be me, justin bieber. Tmrw ill find out.

Also, I counted im gna receive ard $75 worth pocket money for th wks till raye, but Im gna spend it all and not able to save -.-" need to buy th cam cover, CD etc. Sigh.

Aghhhhhh, 3half h of tuition tmrwwwwwww when its alrdy fridayyyyy

Freaaaakyou

SCHOOOOOL IS DIFF NOW SRSLYXZ SUKZ

2011-08-11T01:42:00.003+08:00

Hi there ! That was my table on fri. It got spammed by chalk we stole from lab. Hehe.

Hm, I was actlly rlly happy 'causeeee I passed amaths, did ss test kinda well, did compre test well. But, right now my mood seems to be like th opp.

'cause firstly, deb lost my dslr lens cover. Not mad at her 'cause i love her too much but i need to pay over 30 bucks for a new one and my stepfather cant find out abt it or IM DEAD. But I can only buy it in 2+ wks time due to no time and yeah. Also, ive been in need of money 'cause... haiz. Need to spend money wisely !!! and stop buying stuffs for other ppl 85% of th time.

Secondly, Ive been having waaaaaaaay too much fun this short holiday. Gone out everyday except on Sat (i did my hw) and Mon (used laptop 24h). Soooo, tmrw have 2 test and didnt rlly study......................................................... I. need. to. buck. up. and. stop. stop. stop. letting. people. down. Okay i shall start BY next wk and studystudystudy librarylibrarylibrary. Pinky promise to self AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH COMMON TEST CMNG AAAH KK SORRY OMG K.

ANW, (sorry for being a lil retarded here but look at th time & im not studying) another thing is that i didnt go for sci symposium which i only knew th day bfore. Soooo a quarter of my classmates didnt go, other classes all went and they all had valid reason or lied and pretended they had a valid reason... except me.So basically im th ONLY one of all sec 3 pure sci who skipped 'cause i went out. Wah nice. Srsly, am i rlly that bad no right -.-Anw, since our sch has changed in a sense, my name and 3 others will be submitted to principal. And think abt it, my reputation sucks to me now. 'cause alrdy have beta for latecmng last year. And I still want to participate for sec 1 orientatn camp next year. Hopefully, that wont affect my leadership skillls (actlly it does). Anw, im determined to chnge ! But as of now, havent yet since i didnt study.

So, that time break fast at simpang. So cool, deb & hud clique were all there. I went w my chi classmates, since my close friends in dmn nvr ever seem to have time to go out w me, except dayah and i rlly do appreciate that. Maybe thats why im sucha introvert and independent person compared to last time. Got no life, agh. Anw, yeah. And todayy had tash 4 reunion, i guess. Deb came to my hse in the afternoon, broke fast at tesya's. Wah, i tell you th food damn alot and amazing. I love you girls alot lahhhh, you guys have this big space in my heart k.

Btw, so many ppl moving out now, out of pasir ris. Am i so stupid to ask my parents move to another hse in pasir ris just to be close to my friends when now they are moving out ? Sigh. So, life's like this. We keep moving.

OKAY END OF RANDOM STORY BROTHAR.

2011-08-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

I bought 2 CDs, and ordered one. Maybe buying one more.

Omg, am I wasting my money ? But lately my downloader is like (*$*

Haiz, nvm. I dont regret.

Anw, do you know that those indonesian clothes sold in geylang for us to wear during raye are actlly wedding clothes in indonesia ? Hah, cool.

ramadhan

2011-08-02T20:57:00.003+08:00

hi. im eating our favourite haagen dazs. and i truly miss debby rian seraffina being forever by my side. anw, selamat berpuase everyone. (:

wurly

2011-07-30T23:51:00.003+08:00

I kinda miss my lion (curly) hair. Sorry if this photo shocked ya. Haha.

Thurs was Dayah's bday, bought her Garrett. Watched HP movie too. Wah, 10 years seemed to pass kinda fast too. :O Btw, Happy Birthday to Louis today (:

Fri had interact installation w St Andrew's guys. It wouldve been rlly fun if we were more bonded. Anw, I hope we'll get to do overseas CIP pleeeeeease.

Then Sat we had this Malay exhibition thing at S'pore teachers academy w some mly juniors. I did th comic thing w Siti. It was so funnnnn. Earned some CIP hours agn, hehe. Then went outtt.

Im so tireddd, only left today to study for 3 tests. IM SO DEAD SUPERDUPERLY. AAAAGH.

btw, siti helped me steal slippers. Haha, dont wrry shall return. Aight, we shant earn any dosa during this fasting mth. Insha'Allah.

bias

2011-07-23T22:34:00.001+08:00

Im spamming, but this is impt (to me)

Vanessa cut her haaaaaair, aaah.

But it's alright, its for her new movie btw.

Heartz still.

Okey, gna update my blog songs.

Havent study yet ;D

ive got panda eyes

2011-07-23T19:41:00.004+08:00

Im as happy as this bear cauzeeeee

BASKIN ROBBINS IS FINALLY HERE.

Omg, I usually'd eat them in Dubai. Finally!!

Kay, now I miss Maryam.

I ended up lazing ard today. Too lazy to go out and study w siti / watch hockey match w Azyan / go carnival. Just when my friends are helping me giving a life, I end up being a pig. Haiz.

W that, I shall start studying soon.....

Btw, bs font colours are retarded. I cant seem to 'colour' them properly, that's why my posts are all in dull / retarded colours. Okey.

tumblah

2011-07-22T22:02:00.003+08:00

I found this on tumblr, and i actlly got it. One accomplished from wishlist. Woo

My perspective:

(:

2011-07-22T20:01:00.006+08:00

HYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

O lvl LC is over and done with. And I freaking make a stupid mistake and chose this wrong answer. Anw, next 2 mt pprs will be in Nov I think. I gotto prepare early i guess ?

Hmm, Azwan's been sleeping over for th wkend. And I had buffets on 2 days in a row. Sigh. Yeah it's delicious. Aaah lobsters, sashimis and my favourite dessertsz etc. But now.. nvm. Im too fat now. Sigh. K, lemme be a happy fat girl for now. *mindset changes aft a second*

Its true im at a stage now where 'im completely stuck with my studies, forever failing, dont know where to start and study right' Im at a dead end. And idk what to do. My 'reputation' in my family as a gd student has been crushed badly. How to catch upppp, there's too much ive been losing out on. Ugh.

Basically my life is..........

Ok. Whatever. (:

My mum as usual is awaaaaaaaaaaaay. At Thailand now. That explains why I can use this laptop etc etc and basically enjoy life alone at home which is not that interesting. Sppose to watch hockey match tmrw but i feel so lazy but I wna goo -interruption-

So, idk what to say. I guess my blog everything is boring now. Sorry dear. Im also not active in fb, twitter, wtv wherever.

Im just active w myself. Haha, k that sounds wrong. Ok idk what im talking abt. If youve read till this line, thanks for taking time to read. Love ya.

invade only if youre genuine

2011-07-16T21:00:00.007+08:00

When it comes to family, I put up a wall. When it comes to guys, I put up a wall. When it comes to friendship I gave my all.

I feel like Im so vulnerable now. It's just me. Im not gd enough for anything.

From now onwards, Im gna put up walls all around me for everything. I'll be on guard. I'd not get too close. Maybe im being too serious but yeah.

I'd rather seem pathetic than try to fit in when it's not right anymore.

If youre true, you'll prove me wrong.

whoever whenever

2011-07-15T18:14:00.005+08:00

'Best Friends Forever'. Words that meant the world to me, made me secure.

But now, it doesn't sound comforting anymore.

Doubts do drift ppl apart.

Someone prove me wrong.

july

2011-07-08T21:21:00.005+08:00

Yo. What's happening guys ?
Hehe, does that sound familiar.
Anyway, a quickie for now. It seems everytime I blog im rushing, that's 'cause i dont have th freedom of having my own workable laptop.

My studies have been outrageous, in the dumps.
LTC overrrrr, everything.
Tmrw, im gg M'sia, twice in 2 years. I rlly dislike gg there, what w everything. Plus, im so busy, still havent do eng project to film. And so tmrw im literally wasting my day. Anw, im gg w my mum's company = adults. Awkward much ?

Yeah, I guess my posts are boring now but.... wtv.
Hmm, i 'know' this person who went temp blind for a few days i think. Thought it was due to other health reasons, but actlly doc said it may be due to watching comp too much yt etc. So, get off your comp man, not too much alright ppl (:

Oh and I CANT WAIT TO WATCH HP, ohmygod
that's it. see ya. x

2011-06-27T02:49:00.004+08:00

I cant sleep, shant try to alrdy. i dont feel like getting off my bed, or try to revise for once since june holidays. Now im gna organise my wantneeds. (:
More tops - im running out 'em
Marc Jacob's perfume - its so fragrant & strong
Proper more presentable footwear - i need a change
Bagsssss - birkin / handbag - ive too little bags i think i need more range
jacket / sweater/ certain type of hoodie wtv it is - think it's been 2yrs since i bought one plus my fave one someone brrwd and nvr returned. angry but yeah.
Portable fan (x
my first branded shades pls - need one that fits
thats all for now, tho idk when ill actlly get these.

2011-06-21T15:50:00.001+08:00

So many things I wish to excel, starting as an amateur. But too many things I fail in right now.
Is time running out ?

2011-06-21T15:45:00.001+08:00

Other than Vanessa, this is my other half.

*melts*

strength couldnt cure it all

2011-06-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

We acted like we were stronger, concealing our miseries, for each other till the end of your time. Tho what we needed was just the opposite - acknowledgement, a break in pretense. That way, at least I'd know you'd go in peace and I wouldve been able to forgive myself better.
We missed out on too much.
Wherever you were, there is a hole in my life.

2011-06-17T20:35:00.003+08:00

Whatsup guyz ? I think it's been long.*waves*

Letme recap LTC as short as possible.

-It was an awesome experience which I can bring along w me as I grow up to be a better leader. It opens up my views on certain things.

-You get that extreme feeling of watching campers 'grow up' in 3 short days. Thumbs up.

-Belaying was so much fun. Im glad i did rlly well belaying altho i didnt attend belay sch at all. Winkwink.

-Im thankful and glad for th teamwork of Quartermasters for these few mths working tgt. We're rlly bonded & thanks for being there as a team whenever one of us needs help / break down.

-I love love everyone involved in LTC. We rlly bonded and got to know one another to a diff lvl. Thanks for everything.

-It helped me lose weight ! Hehehe.

-I slept 2h each night.

-There were a few super epic funny hilarious awesome exciting moments that ill nvr forget.

Ill not blog further. Wtv that is memorable to me, I shall keep it in mind. Too lazy to share those awesome stuffs. Haha.

And I saw Aliff Aziz in expo. Hehe.

Alright, i ask mum to keep broadband tmrw or what so I can start studing. Havent start and next wk's last wk !!! Oh my.

Anw, i always update on my twitter. More info there, not here. And yaaa. idk whattosay.

I LOVE LTC'11 AND EVERYONE INVOLVED. no word can explain.

And w that, I wish you guys well and be an even better leaders in future.

This is so... mushy but yeah. It was rlly that awesome.

only kpop

2011-06-06T01:04:00.004+08:00

Hi guyz.

Yeah so I went to Kpop heal the world concert. Hey, im doing it for charity and helping th victims yknow. Haha k. Anw, I feel lucky. 'cause I just became a fan of LJ a few mths ago then baaaaam I met him. *screams* k. i shant go and praisehim or wtv it is. So, we bought th ticket on th day itself, first cation which is th most front group. Th cost is a lil over $100, but guess what ? We bought for $40 only. Awesome huh. We got th tenth row, middle seats. Smuggled in cameras. It was awesome. Yeah im a fan now so ? It's cool to watch them live and all. Kinda regretted for a few things like sucky photos, missing the-moment-photos but hey it was my first time enthuing bringing a camera for a concert so I shld be rlly happy for that and breathing same air as LJ. Ehehe. *pervert smile* there're alot of things i notice but shant bore you.

Tho i think our A5 seats gp rocks. I thought we were th most chaotic group = fun. Kim Joon was first and he chose us = we were damn enthu. Also, when t-ara perform, our gp was the only one watching while standing on our chairs... what ? Yeah, thats what rlly happened. Soooo, youre disgusted at me now ? Hah, im rlly glad overall thats what matters.

bai.

Lawndawn

2011-05-29T22:37:00.004+08:00

So basically, im not enthu w social networking anymore. I dislike it when ppl wna mantain a conv eg in fb. I prefer texting, thats where i get annoying. My fb's for pictures for you to view. Twitter - quick updates. Blog - granda ma stories to update. Tumblr - spamming. Just saying. There goes this grandma.

Sorry this post will seem wordy, cant seem to upload pics / colour my fonts. BS is crazyxz.

Anw, my internet stick gna get confiscated soon, you shld know why. And so, I feel like updating here.

& randomly, I feel like updating bits of my London trip which I havent.

1) the people are super friendly. I like how v approachable they are compared to us. Theyre rlly cool nice ppl, and I enjoy whenever theyd make random conv w you. I also know what kind of words they like to use, wont tell you. Haha. I wont use them tho, like some boasty ppl, sorry that was random, it just crossed my mind. And first time I rlly heard like everyone talk in 'eir thick British accent. Oh ya, idk why, but not much hot guys. I see a few but they were all tourists. There's this damn cute guy, he was w only his parents and he keep posing countless of times w MJ was figurine a few times. Ah, how cuteee. So innocent, and hot. Heehee.

2) In th 14h flight (idk if thats combined or what anw), I sat alone, inside. W this old angmoh couple. Its alright except er i didnt go washrm at all 'cause like squeezy but i didnt feel like so its okay. I realised they.... smell. As in old-ppl-smell. Im not criticising. It's just an eye opener on my part, that its true whenever ppl say those kind of things. They were nice, rlly. Ofc there were random conv.

3) I FREAKING DIDNT GET TO SEE TH HOGWARTS DINING HALL. We were alrdy there, damnnn. Due to stupid weather, we cant go in, 'cause too little ppl, then also they have to clear th snow to make it look nice which wastes time. Aaaaaah, so angry. It's some uni btw, i forgot th name. Aaaah still angry. Nvm, we shall fly there agn, thanks.

4) when we were there, th weather was bad. Th place received th highest amt of snowfall that time I think. There was blizzard. I didnt know until I was back. But th weather was so syioook, haha. First time mah. But I likeyyyyy.

5) My mother lost her freaking SGD $1000. She brought them in her wallet, then lost it while at.. omg my memory damn baaaaaad. Okk, at primark. So ya. 'cause of that, we werent able to take th eurotrain or sth and go to paris which is quite near. But I think it's a blessing in disguise since if we went, we'd get stuck like some due to th weather.

5) I think I rlly like countries w seasons, more styles of fashion. i love boots. Aww. Ok i think I like spring and when my mum went to turkey, it was springtime. Aw.

Was that fun to read ? Hehe. Kidding lah. More next time then. (:

HELLO

2011-05-27T15:55:00.004+08:00

Helloooooo.

I know ive not been updating ? 5 days is counted as not updating right ?

Maybe 'cause ive got twitter ? HAHA. No lah, im not that active or what, like some ppl. Just that any brief update eg watching movies ill write there and rants / thoughts / longish stuff, itll be here. So fllw !

Hm, I rlly rlly need to lose weight, so I can wear my fbt nicely for camps. 'cause right, I dont have any other proper shorts except 1 or 2 and ive like 3 fbts. And now..... sigh. & my eyelashes are literally killing meeeexz. Everyday a few will drop, isit normal ? Aha, but I keep thinking my eyelids will become botak. Ok, sorry, I think too much abt weird stuffz.

HAHA OKAY SEE YOU GUYS SOON, and im glad i didnt come for sports day, my friends were all like complaining. Ill keep in touch.

& check out kevjumba's new vid. i think it's rlly sweet, at least to me. And also Maddi Jane's rolling in the deep. She's uber awesomeeeeeeeeeee, :O

reasonable

2011-05-22T18:25:00.000+08:00

tweety

2011-05-22T16:54:00.005+08:00

Hi there.

As you can see, that's my twitter acc. I srsly didnt realise I had one. But I think it was made for a year alrdy, thanks to Syazana. So ya. Idk whether Im gna use it or what. We'll see. It helps if you fllw me. HAHA.

And at least Hayley's out ! So, watch out for American Idol, where they have th youngest final contestants now, shld be. 15 & 16 year olds. Cool.

Yesterday was our first LTC trainers' camp. Our spirit was a bit letdown, but I know we could be better leaders. Last camp, i tore sth. This trainers' camp, my unwanted shoe tore like.. omg. So m-bear-ras-zinc. Anw, I learnt how to belay, but didnt try belaying anyone since I was late. And, it's true that every 5 mins, an aeroplane will pass by th campsite. -.-

all rounder

2011-05-19T22:25:00.003+08:00

I just feel that personally, life now, to me, is mundane.

Ever since im out of nball, it's always just studying.

No more french classes / horse riding but that was pri sch -.- lol

Why oh why didnt my mum enrol me in some course so im able to carry on the skills until now. Which is gd since if you start from young, you can be rlly ~~professional~~ good at that, yknow.

I wna be a better individual, create myself.

Yeah i know my studies are rlly rlly rlly rlly bad, but still it doesnt hurt to hope / wish.

Leading a life just as a student is simply boring.

I want more.

But mum wouldnt grant me that. I hope she will soon tho.

It's like there's no drive, i don't feel gd this way.

Just some no-skill girl, man that sucks.

Haha, just saying.

Ohya, got results back. Tell you next time, maybe ? It's rlly bad tho. (:

beastly

2011-05-14T21:05:00.011+08:00

Hi you. Fri 13th was yesterday. Did bad luck get to you ?

I realised Im a sensitive person. Sigh.
Sensitive skin, sensitive to drugs, sensitive emotionally. Ha.

Yesss, watched Beastly w my beautiful girls, Debby, Dayah & Huda. Ofc it was awesome. 'cause it's Vanessa & also Alex Pettyfer yo.

Then, 3 of us spent time at ikea. Aft for so long. You guys are still th best ever. I had so much fun. Thanks. And also for er.. stealing th 2 toys for me ? Haha.

I know it's really time for me to lose weight.

My stepfather bought me like 3 new jeans and a few tops, but like Im too fat and not confident to wear them esp since ive inherit huge thighs. So ya. Someone encourage me pls. Hehe. I desperately need to keep fit forever Im im one big lazyass.

My laptop's being a beach now. It's like forever lagging etc. I shldve said yes when my mum ask whether we shld buy an ipad. Instead I was all like "NO, it's not impt. We've got other things and dont waste money." I misplace my ipod and idk where it's now, it's been a few mths. Omg. K, I shld request for a personal laptop. Only when I do well in my studies.

Ohyeah, I didnt mention MYE at all. Know why ? It sucks like couldnt suck you guys anymore. It sucks so much that I dont wna talk about it. Chem im gna get a single digit, AMaths as usual fail, Phy too. Everyone's like complaining, crying and im there w no cmmnts but MYE is killing me like shit inside, but oh well, what to do right ? My brain's not smart enough. I believe it takes time.

Alright, I wish upon a star to help me find my ipod, help me in my studies, help make my school life easier which sucks hardcore now, for th first time ever in my whole life, and also take care of my mum in Turkey. Yes, she's having another holiday in Istanbul. W/o me.

Right, im gna practice maths. Call me crazy but I realised it's time we have to keep up w studies everytime w/o complaceny or itll be damn hard.
Alright, I wish you well.

a little something

2011-05-11T21:03:00.002+08:00

Lastly,

polling day

2011-05-07T22:27:00.003+08:00

So th rally was.......idkwhattosay. But th SDA damn cute. He so chubby. 'YES OR YES?!' Haha, k sorry.
And also went to PAP rally. AT LAST heard+saw Mr Teo Chee Hean give a proper speech. He has always attended every CC events, so yaaaa.

Then right, funny sia. S'poreans are like not responsive kind, then all th cheering etc are from their own supporters, so it's like th atmosphere is fake to an extent. Haha cute.
Okay, sorry for being patriotic, as xueling said. :L
But...... results out ltr ! Hehehehehe. Go watch. Okay, just politics for now.
Have fun revising aye.

2011-05-01T20:35:00.004+08:00

there's a rally gg on at pasir ris park carpark i think. i can hear them from my hse, sounds like some argument, aha. and i see crowds of ppl gg that way, when its usually deserted that walkway. so cool. k, i just felt like writing, mum confiscate internet stick, using hp now. and its almost half a year alrdy. and 3c are like a bunch of cliques still. mye's killing me too. okai im gna eat and accompany mum to th rally. ooh im interested in politics. if only debby still lived here we'd go tgt AND Id dare to bring dslr to capture th moment in history ? hahah. kk alright see yaaaaaa.

2011 getting suckier

2011-04-28T19:48:00.008+08:00

Just sucks 'cause when you're down, I'd know what's on your mind, or at least have an idea. And right now, youre totally clueless. Guess your sensitive personality isnt sensitive enough towards me. Youve got all else that my role is not impt anymore I guess. Oh well, thats why they say expectations lead to disappointments. I dont expect but these things come naturally. At least for now, I wouldnt want to expect anymore from you alrdy. I feel special enough thanks. &yes, for th first time ever, I admit it's me now who's insecure. A surprise huh.

YOYO. Nice opening speech ? Ah, that was unofficial part for you or wtv.

Went to see the specialist alrdy @ hospital to check my ear. So cool, first time mah. Everything's alright. They did certain tests that were cool too. Aha. 'cause it's like a few ppl chcking on me. :O Once th doc help me dig my ear. Hehe, I know gross, but sorry since im so open. It felt good. HAHAHAHA.
And my specs............. (embarrassed)

I watch the voting day and it looks like some history we learn. Anw, royal wedding tmrw. Just find it weird that ive went to the outside of Buckingham palace and also went to th church for their exchange of vows or sth 'cause this occassion is rlly major.

Bfore I go, have you ever wondered why ants smell acidic when you crush them ? I googled. *grins*
& bfore I end of w th text, Im gna app every little thing now, and hopefully open my eyes wide enough to know who has rlly got my back, makes an effort to know me well / spend time w me altho we alrdy know each other. Uh sorry guys. Okay here:

What you're getting a whiff of when you crush an ant are just a few of the more volatile components of the potpourri of chemicals ants produce. The body of an ant has, on average, around ten glands producing different chemicals, serving a variety of functions including defense, communication, alarm, trail-marking, and antibacterial and antifungal purposes. The communication and alarm chemicals are generally the ones humans smell because they need to be volatile in order to work, and the alarm compounds are going to predominate when you're crushing and killing them. In most cases, the ants voluntarily release the alarm chemicals, but some alarm chemicals can only be released when the ant is being killed. Either way, these compounds, singly or in combination, warn nearby ants of trouble. Ants near the spot where another ant is killed suddenly become hyperactive and alert--some species fall into a blind panic, while others become aggressive to the point of suicide. That's all triggered by some of those chemicals you smell, one of the more common ones being citronellal, a lemony-smelling compound related to what's in citronella candles.

Idk if it's reliable, but it sounds convincing enough ? Btw, I smell everything so dont ask why I thought of this. :B Now I feel likw some vicious ant murderer. Love you ants.

f

2011-04-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

Whether we take each other for granted, or ppl changing over time, the bottom line is someone stops trying and th feeling is not as strong as before.

2011-04-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

Yo.
Im on comp now and I think instead of revising im gna get glued here till maybe 2am. We'll see.
Anw, I just wanted to wich bballers all th best for their finals & all & make everyone proud, esp their teachers etc.
Sooo, Ive been studying at lib w Harita, Jia Xuan, Yan Ting and Jasmine. Took Mr Tan's car for th first time. :o k no big deal.
Anw, ya, I started revision late and agn, Im dead.
Alright idkwhattosayseeyousoon.

fright

2011-04-22T22:10:00.002+08:00

You're not scared of the dark,
you're scared of what's hidden by it.
You're not scared of heights,
you're afraid of the pain of falling.
You're not afraid of the people around you,
you're afraid of rejection.
You're not afraid to love,
you're just afraid of not being loved back.
You're not afraid to try again,
you're just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.

diff

2011-04-20T20:59:00.006+08:00

Okay one shoutout: In th bus - Th traffic light was red, th bus driver stretched, exposing his armpits & I swear there was diffusion taking place so I could smell. But ofc I was near. So ya. It stinks.

Okay, i figure im gna flunk ard 5 subjects for MYE. So let's just hope when that happens, I wont get kicked out of LTC ?

Phy test tmrw. Havent start revision. Die. Aight then, see you.

Life has taught me that there are always barriers that get in the way. We keep on adapting, changing.

2011-04-17T23:13:00.001+08:00

HI.

So how did my NAPFA go ? Expected, baaaaaaad. *goat's accent* k lame.

Um, A for all, now my used to be strength which is 2.4 I got B, and as usual, SBJ E BUT this time I passed on th dot w/o cheating. Yeaaaaaaaay.

JUST ATE TURTLE EGGS AFTER LIKE A CENTURY. Ok sorry, we must conserve their endangered species.

And I gave up on my studies for th time being. Srsly. MYE in 2 wks ? It used to be later. Thanks ma'm.

Aight, time's out, see ya.

Hi Im Aliah

2011-04-14T18:32:00.009+08:00

Nice. Tue get caught for untucked shirt, at sch gate. 1h detention aft that. Seriously, sch ? It's not like Im a badass at sch, I look like a frkng nerd, and yes it was my first time untucking shirt this year.
Screwed AM test big time. Did TYS like shitxz, perfect ans, do test, forget everything. Awesome. Heavy rain like mad today. No contacts, stupid uncmfortable specs, went library w poor sight, luckily acted like normal ppl. Stuck till rain 'lessen'.
Damn longarithm, dont understand a single thing. Alot of longarithm hw to be hand in on Mon. Tuition not until next wk. Very cool.

Im feeling super blessed, thanks.

Im not like emo now or what, just listing down outstanding negatives so far. Maybe Im a bit moody now, k.
So, urbandictionary enlighten, praise me ? (ud.com copyright below)

Aliah {aw-Lyee-A] Origin: Arab

1. A complicated, yet beautiful girl Indicates th inside perhaps. Checked.
2. An unrecognized queen Im humble. Winks. Checked.
3. Someone who defines themselves Checked.
4. A true individual, a true nonconformist Sorry, peer pressure dont pressure me. Checked.
5. A powerful, self actualized person Checked.
6. Means "High and Almighty One" or "Sky" "Lofty One" Er.
I am me, I am Aliah. K, this shall er be my motto ?

Im so sorry if my comments sound so er, action, whats that word, full of myself ? Im just bored and dwna revise, I actlly had to look up my Contemporary Dictionary for some of th meanings. But th meanings are kinda true right ? Hah, kidding rlly. I think, hehe.

Seize you soon.

(th Enter spacing format has gone crazy for my blogposts so far)

dont worry be happy

2011-04-11T20:08:00.003+08:00

LIKE ME. :B

HAHA.

Btw Japan hit by another quake. So be GOOD, everyone.

You shld know what I mean if you believe in being 'good' now.

Let's saveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2011-04-05T22:08:00.001+08:00

Since Im so irritatingly happy, A woman is often measured by the things she cannot control. She is measured by the way her body curves or doesn’t curve, by where she is flat or straight or round. She is measured by 36-24-36 and inches and ages and numbers, by all the outside things that don’t ever add up to who she is on the inside. And so if a woman is to be measured, let her be measured by the things she can control, by who she is and who she is trying to become. Because as every woman knows, measurements are only statistics. and STATISTICS LIE. Nike advert, 1991.

YOYAWAZZABE

2011-04-05T21:28:00.018+08:00

Hi you. Hm, Chem test sure fail. If I get 0 even = no surprise, like srsly. Yeah Im serious. Anw, being positive as ever, I shall not elab. I realise I didnt blog abt London / Phuket / Sec 3 camp / Sec 1 camp as I said I would. But hm who cares anw ? Maybe I will bit by bit if I feel like (er agn who cares?).

Bfore I move on, one more negative thing: some guy's freaking pissing me off, like srsly. Emotional guys are cool and all because theyre er thoughtful ? But emo-mummy's-girl-guy-tell-me-everything, er, im not as emo as you, ill be nice and all, but, be a man, okay man.

Another one, 3C did th angel-mortal thing. And I wrote a short note to my mortal, and thanks ah for not checking your mail. I srsly went and threw th note away. Bad angel.

Sooo Im rlly happy actlly 'cause Ive received presents like at least once a wk, following my bday. Ard 1 and half month has passed and this wk I still receive. Even tho it's belated, getting them once in a while feels awesome. Aaaaaaaaah, thank you guyssss !!!!! ♥ But this wk will be th last alrdy aw. Haha omg so greedyy. :B Oh wait one more from my dearrrr bestf. Hehe. SO THANKYOUSOMUCH K. LOVE YOU ALL.

& also, yknowwhat ? I used up like $100 of my savings to buy presents. My hard earned..... HAHA kidding. I so nice one wont give any kind of present for any of you so thats why = sacrificing my $$ too. So thoughtful, hehe. Hope you all like it tho.

..okay.. actlly Idk what to say wait except wtf fri NAPFA. Dieeeeeeee, k.

Ohyayaya, I also damn happy today lah can. 'cause hor I manage to help Amanda achieve 16 mins for 2.4 like last year, since she failed mah. K ya I know many of others were successful too, but still.

Okai, smile always yo. Yo yo. Yo.

Hee, sorry. My friends have been saying im super annoyingly lame. Ok, who cares its my blog.

.

2011-04-03T01:39:00.000+08:00

:O

2011-04-01T21:02:00.004+08:00

Okay now I think th best feeling in th 'world' is reaching sch early (as long as th sc havent issue out late detention forms) when you think youre damn late.

You should know what it's like being us. Everytime. But whenever this lucky-damn-late thing happens, it always happens to be a gd morning = gd start for th day. (Y) Despite th kecohness, it's rlly fun actlly. Right Siti ?

K talking to myself.

Love you Siti, now no more prasan & asking :p

Haha, anw srsly Im always there for you okay. <3

See you guys.

so

2011-04-01T20:58:00.001+08:00

Our generation's lifestyle.

2011-03-29T19:16:00.000+08:00

Okay, HELP

we r who we r

2011-03-27T16:16:00.005+08:00

This photo look emo, but nvm th highlight is th phrase.

Well, you can change to improve yourself, but if you change to please everyone, 'cause youre so insecure abt your own attitude / personality then for what ? Might as well work as an impersonator for maybe JB ? Okay no link much ? -.-

At least this cute brawny guy believes in himself. Aha. <3

Btw check out Maddie Jane's vids, Price Tag ++ (Y)

questn mark

2011-03-25T23:04:00.006+08:00

your family's there by your side everyday, physically. yet theyre never there to support you when you fall. you see, it's all on the outside. and perhaps your dear friends knows you genuinely compared to their assumption shits. whats a gd family when they spend money money money money money money on you and just care but doesnt make the effort to at least know you ? like know you. for th simplest things. Dyou agree ? hey me aint complaining, me thinking. im a piscean, thinks alot. k, im gna zzzz w my little toys. see you soon.

popcorn

2011-03-16T21:56:00.003+08:00

I wna watch ALL of these ++ pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase, before they end @ cinemas. Anyone ? *grins*

cinnamon stixz

2011-03-16T12:47:00.002+08:00

Hiiii, Im so noisy & Im spammingggg my blog.

Btw, do any one of you miss this ~~shit~~ ?! I used to want to go Night Safari just for this, and I cant find them anywhere nowwww. Yes, there're diff versions of them but I want this. (:

tell me k.

& Ive changed my font to normal = small. I used to use bigger fonts 'cause some complained its too small. But um, adapt ? Thanks. :D

to forgive us, but never forget

2011-03-16T12:29:00.005+08:00

"I lost my dad. He lost his tomorrows and I lost all the tomorrows with him. You could say that now, I appreciate them when they come. I want to make them the best they can possibly be."
-The Book of Tomorrow

"There's a lot I have to deal with. I have a lot to forgive myself for. It's taking time."
And guess what, it's still taking time.
Plus, these kind of things, 'move on' is nvr th word. Fckass.

treasure

2011-03-15T00:15:00.004+08:00

Reason why teenagers are insecure. If youve got a bestf who understands you, count yourself lucky. (;

love you bestf. Hehe.

change

2011-03-13T17:00:00.002+08:00

Maybe for all humanity too. We need it.

What we've become

The world has succumb

A time will come

- a disastrous outcome

I do like writing words that rhyme, dont I :O

round

2011-03-13T16:22:00.006+08:00

Sorry I think Im rlly gna spam my blog.

Partly 'cause I see rlly oldie posts or 'cause Im bored.

This March hols I made a pact w Amanda to at least revise & improve so we can help one another in studies in class.

I try to jog at least twice.

Tmrrw Im gna start my hw and get them done too.

Then I hope Excel is successful and maybe we'll catch a movie.

Most prob gg out w either/or Azyan & Deb.

Andddd Thurs to Sun Phuketttttt.

Ohyes, and Ive gotto buy 2 more presentz.

15

2011-03-13T13:52:00.009+08:00

Hello you.

Sofreakingatlast, here is my (brief ?) update on my birthday. 15th. As promised.
Idk why, but i uploaded photos. So basically theyre like captions. :L

We had Care & Share Day at sch, my class' twinning stall is successful. Before that, Siti gave me a cute birthday helium balloon along w a present. Then ASS.H went to my hse first.

This is damn hilarious. Both of them didnt know how to take proper mirror-reflect picts. And they kept trying. Basically, everyone just hung ard in th rm.

These are all my friends whom I invited & came. Didnt want to invite too many. Initially wanted to make a 2B gethering too but failed.

My dear girlfs in sch, we seldom take pict tgt actlly.

They were th awesome 2B guys that are so much fun to be classmates w.

My super close pri sch bestf.

Awesome girlfs.

Nth beats family.

Dunmanites.

TASH4 rawksz.

Cake bash.

Spongebob cakeee.

ASS.H yo.

Present opening ceremony time.

HAHA. Deb stole this from another chalet unit.

There was no adults sleeping. And I freaking forgot to tell them they could sleepover. Sadly it was bare. My little cousins, Azwan & Debby only were there for th night.

Morning swim.

We had to wait.

Breakfast, w sushi too.

We're a part of each other.

Tied up, we're gna use up all of my mum's Tapz money - $70.

w Syafiq & Amelia. We got 240 points.

I love my little cousins alot too. We're family.

I rlly app those who came and all those presents. Esp Siti's bday card, w nballers' wishes. It means alot, and certain others too, but Idwna make this long. As you can see, these are th ppl I normally talk abt.

Lastly, love you all. Dont mind my eyes.

Im sorry if this update is not so info-ish, and not much diff compared to just browsing fb album. Im not so hardworking. Gna update blog songs. [;

omg havent post London -.-

countless

2011-03-03T17:51:00.005+08:00

"Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never ever have enough."

Honestly, Im sick of hearing ppl complaining abt certain stuffs, esp when they take things for granted. I know we are some cool modern ppl, but still.

Anw, will post abt my bday too when im free. Hehehe.

cadbury nuts

2011-02-23T22:10:00.007+08:00

If you see me pissing my ass off, offer me a chocolate (not any kind tho), it'd be really nice. (:

And as yknow, its proven dark choc helps eases stress.

girlfriend

2011-02-21T23:28:00.007+08:00

"Friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil - but it needs a little much of letters and phone calls and small silly presents every so often - just to save it from drying out completely."

Im positive it can overcome anything. That said, those little gifts are impt too. Sad to say, we only call or whatsoever when it's been too long since we last heard of one another, and the other will be like, 'i was thinking why you didnt call.' That's just us, - not-sentimental-unless-we-feel-its-too-long-apart kind of catchup, just not doing th first step. (wait i am sentimental right since im crapping like a grandma, arent i ? Anw.. back to crapstory..) Its like we're missing out so so much now compared to last time, when we know where each other is any min or even sec of th day. Srsly.

But I cant help it, that living so far apart now, im losing a teeny weeny beeny neeny bit of trust every single day. Even though whenever we meet aft for so long, its nvr awkward. Still. All Im holding on to is that weve decided we're each other's true friends, and our endless fond memories when we were inseperable, staying just beside. Th last time we met was like a freaking 3 wks ago. Ahhhh miss you so much and how we were. Im just hoping youll at least come across this, since well, idk if using things over there, you still do visit my blog like how you used to bookmark then.

So, in conclusion I am sentimental. Not. Wtv, judge for yourself, like i care. Its not like you do know me, right. Hehe. Im crapping. K. Omg, see you all on sat. Tutu.

Sorry my blog posting now is kinda shitty and all about my rants. You can take it can you ? That's why youre still reading this v last line. Muah !

viral day sounds better

2011-02-13T23:45:00.007+08:00

Alhamdulillah, Ive katam-ed for th 1st time last Sat I think.

Today I watched my 1st M18, and awkwaaaaard when somewhat obscene scenes were played.

Well, ofc theyre obscene im underage for gdness sake. Anw, it was w my mum stepdad and my aunty so.. it was good. Haha. K so, we watched Swan Lake. Pretty good I guess. To all who craves perfection, go and die srsly. Srry I mean forget abt it. Just be yourself, and try to do your best if possible, but no one's perfect. Yes, that's th moral of th film.

Um, I fnished my all of my wkend hw by Fri but when it comes to Sat, Sun, didnt revise Chem at all. Wtf. Idu anything abt chem since lesson 1 so yeah.

Aah, k by next Monday I must improve my 2.4 by 1 min. Possible, no ? Yeah got 14.56 min deproved by almost 2 mins from last year. ): 14.11 here I come !!!

"Roses are red, violets are blue. Celebrating Valentines is what the Kufaars do. Shaytaan's present between the intimate two, so remember O Muslim it's Haraam for you!"

So to those wearing tudung ah.. HAHA, taken from tumblr. K lame.

So Happy VDay to all ? Go buy presents from interact club tmrw during recess k thanks. K talking to myself. Gnight, gna do a few chem notes. Starting from chapter 1... Tmrw test alrdy

VHF

2011-02-04T16:55:00.003+08:00

Vanessa is now th new Candie's girl. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Anw, my laptop gone crazy for a few mths now. All freaking datas are erased.

Soooo I cant update my songs in ipod at all, 'cause there are no backups.

There are 600 songs inside alrdy. );

Ugh, nvm. My hp is spoilt aft camp, havent send for repair.

And I took freaking 2h plus to download songs for my another spare hp.

Great. Okay, see you. Hehe.

snowrain

2011-02-01T22:20:00.007+08:00

Last 2 days, it's been raining non stop.

Ah, i miss drinking hot chocolate during winter there, ehe.

Therefore, a shoutout to all :

Save the Earth - recycle, reduce, reuse !!!

Pity my reality-imlikethis-emote-face and do it pls. ):

Im gna fail emaths, amaths, geog, phy, chem. So basically all my subjects. Fckass.

Happy CNY to those celebrating, soon~

How you've lived in me

2011-01-30T10:59:00.007+08:00

Cooped in my dark room
drops of rain, wind howling
everything looks so gloom
everything's drowning

Let's try liven it up
Happy Birthday to you

Scents, voice, sounds of you
theyre no more in any places I went to
only things I could hold on to
w all this pain, to get me through

When youre close to tears
but youre smiling
invaded by fears
even on this day, it's all about feigning

Supposed to be my role model
still no doubt i looked up w admiration
why did you bottle
i couldve helped you w all the frustration

Forgive me, i was too young to
understand, and dig deep
but i appreciate what we clung on to
forever i will keep

Birthdays mark our ages
for me, it's about how long youve lived in me
filled my memories of you in pages
only for me to see

W you carved in me, it made me stronger
to overcome all
so lets not ponder
but put up the wall

Now why are you so blue
w smiles reaching my eyes barely
so much love and misses to whom i forever value
I wish you a deserving Happy Birthday already

forever down the road

2011-01-28T15:33:00.003+08:00

"Nothing is impossible."

Wtv reality it is that has been thought to be, there are things way beyond our imagination.

Even for a realist, what is reality anyway ?

Hihihihi

2011-01-22T18:41:00.006+08:00

Helloooo.

Youre staring at a pict similar to my fb dp. And I feel awkward actlly, 'cause I v seldom take a pict of myself (at least as of now, HAHA.) Anw, Ive been kinda busy. Sooo, agn, London & camps are gna postpone, 'cause I rlly have to recall back things and everything. So when I feel like posting even tho itll be way outdated, I will aight.

Anw.
Sch life can be upped abit. Ive been adapting, yeay. I think i rlly improved in my maths, compared to last year which was DISASTROUS. Chem theory is abit confusing 'cause tb info is all over th place.

And, Im really distraught, yes distraught Im not fit now. It's like last year, Im th first girl to fnish 2.4 in my class ? And this year 5 rounds im like th almost 20th o.o and few girls I used to win, is now much faster. And in nball 5 rds is like chicken, they'd just run, not jog to complete it. Ughh. And my inclined pull ups I managed to do 11 then I drop down dead, and for that, it's not even clear whether I hit th line laaaa. When I used to do like 17. Lastly, I went to mjc for like aft Idk how many months, 'cause it's far now. I managed to run 3 rds 7 mins, so if 6 rds = 16 / 17 mins ? Isnt that like failing ?!?!! Must get my 13 / 14 mins back. HELPPPPPPPPP. Someone motivate & train w me can ? Winks. Ohyes, and also th worse part is, my face is like tomato red aft I excercise, and it's so weird in my class, 'cause no one's face is, and well not rlly used to it.

Kay, blabbered too much. I just hope I can fulfill one of my 2011 resolution -> get back all my As for every NAPFA sttn except SBJ which I just passed on th dot last year. Aiya, my legs are too fat, how to pass this year, Idk. -.- Okay goodbye, hopefully I can post more cheerful things in future. Maybe Ill start posting tumblr picts agn in between to update ? Alright, talk to my damn face there k. :* oh and btw, I know that my curtain is like th toilet curtain, hehe.

K i gotta run now. See ya.

);

2011-01-14T19:42:00.006+08:00

I miss living right next to her, frequent late night calls, sleep overs, hanging out, crashing into each other's cribs, spending time w each others families, and it goes on.

I miss my bestfriend, my father, TASH4, neighbours, other close friends sometimes even 2B'10 & nballers, it goes on too.

I know Im an emomomo now. I just need my blog to turn to, hah.

Ill keep on adapting and adapting. Dont wrry. Winks.

Ohyeah, I rlly need to buck up my studies, but who's gna teach me ?

Mark & Sang used to be th usual ones to guide esp Maths, but that was then.

Okay see you~ London & my 2 camps update next time.

So far.. 2011 ? It ain't getting any better.

happy new year

2011-01-03T07:28:00.008+08:00

Hello.

It's a new year now, and I know I havent been updating. Maybe 'cause Ive got tumblr now, and Im not in th v best mood these days. Haha. But no one is probably reading much now, ay.

Yeah Ive watched Gullivers Travel. Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn nice, so funny. (Y) and been hanging ard Tamp and downtown only these days. Yeah didnt celebrate new year, what w Deb just moved, dmn friends not hanging out, and other friends not celebratng out this year and i just dont have th mood to. Regretted tho' 'cause I couldve taken some nice photos, I guess. Dayah got a new cute hp, 'cause it's like mine, hehe. And TASH4 outing always cancel. I hold it on you, Hud. Heh.

Guess what ? Went to TM today blah blah, otw up to escalator I suddenly rmmbrd gg out w Deb's family, missing her and all. And th next min I bumped into her. Ahhh. Telepathy. Imysmmmmmmmmmmmmm. ): i rlly do. (L)

Anw, sch's tmrrw (noooo). And well I hope itll be fun (fat hope, at least maybe only 10% compared to last year's fun). Haritaaaa, im counting on you, and only a few others. Plus theres th camp, and realised I actlly missed out alot. I dont have th damn packing list, didnt know need to bring blah blah blah. Great. Luckily Ive got Dayah. Ugh.

Honestly I sense some of us drifting apart. Or maybe Im too paranoid. I just hope ASS.H will still be close next year onwards ? Well. All friends in 3D, and I hope itll still be th same as well as those peeps in 2B'10. But im not a peer pressurised person, and wtv will be will be. I miss you 2B guys, I rlly do and will miss out th fun. Alot. Gtta hang out w all girls only this year... yeah. :L

&, excel (as much as im pessimistic abt this,) Im sure we will do okay. If you think I can, you can too ! Th 3Bs are nice, and whats impt youve got Bio. Im jealous ! & thanks for still being there, aft all this, heh. (x Okay so im srry if you dont receive souvenirs, 'cause I only bought for requested ones, and a v few others. So thats to you who dont even think of buying me anything when you claim youre close. (; Hehehe.

And Im a freeloader now, so I guess my current aim is only for studies, and getting back to fitshape. But I didnt attempt my assessment bk at all. Yet. Hm.

So have a great day ! And send you luck to me. Srsly, I need it. Thanks~

~~3B/Bio............~~

hey

2010-12-28T02:03:00.003+08:00

Sooo Imma update ?

Mmm, just now had a er refreshing midnight workout aft a century. As almost everyone has noticed Im rounder, bigger, flabbier, weaker now. It's true, rlly. If yknow me. Haikal was like, "Eh, youre fat alrdy ah." and other evidences. & it sucks, but I hope Ill get in shape by my bday ? Srry to those whom I promised to erm slim down when sch reopens instead I became even fatter. Hehe.

Im pretty much okay now. Not. I rlly do hate my class next year. Hate. Yes. Idk why I cant get over it, usually I can get over negative stuff somehow, but this keeps bugging, dk why. Im sorry, but it's me. I cant accept im taking freaking lit when I rmmbr this year I even said Im nvr taking it. Im not taking bio at all. How to pursue my ambition ? Whats more, I quitted nball to rlly buck up my studies and achieve my goals. Well, I did improve, was happy actlly, but th previous results was too bad. So here I am. Like a loser. And th classmates ? Im not sure. Only close to a few, all girls. I rlly love 2B. Mum tried calling to no avail. So whatthehell.

And Ive got no skill whatsoever, which sucks too. Idw to lead a life mainly studying, but currently im not pursuing any passion 'cause I cant and I cant think of anything else. Mum rlly wants me to join bowling, but no way ? Right now I just feel sucky w what being fat all, haha. But srsly.

Im sad. Im truly disappointed. Got no drive.

So there to who asked me to update, and emo one, ow. London next time if I feel like it. Winks.

no1 V still

2010-12-23T03:08:00.003+08:00

Zanessa *heartbreaks*

Btw, just got back a couple of h ago. Cant sleep. Sch tmrrw. Update soon.

And they were so madly in love.

Wtv to my font. Layy zeee.

fkr

2010-12-14T13:55:00.005+08:00

My next year near future is gna suck.

Ive no idea what to expect for sec 1 camp.

I alrdy got freaking Lit which I loathe, and no bio.

How to become a damn psychologist ?

And then... nvm. Yknow. D:<

For 2 frigging years, omg.

ASS.H are all in 3D except me.

Others in either A/B.

Just great. I srsly wna go 3B, failed.

Shld have bucked up my maths sooner.

Suck suck suck suck suck sucksssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

Just my awful luck.

);

none can beat

2010-12-14T08:04:00.001+08:00

If AB's status abt ZV is a rumour, Imma stop being her fan.

Yeah.

one sweet day

2010-12-09T04:08:00.005+08:00

I just love her so much.

Wendy's (Y) -> Sleepover -> Bruce Lee my Bro

HAHAHAH ARIFF LEE

Did so many things I missed 4 of my fave fave shows. ):

H: I know he's looking at you now.

A: Repeat what you said.

H: No nth.

A: Just say.

H: He's looking at you now, because he miss you. He loves you. You see he say "I love you because you can make me smile when no one else can".

(quote from my poster wall)
I love my little cousin.

Yknow sometimes little kids they kinda know more, 'cause theyre not afraid to say wtv they think or what's right to them. And I like that. ♥

Home changes

2010-12-07T05:25:00.005+08:00

"Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe" (':

jaybee

2010-12-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

Well, I didnt hate JB, just dislike, idk why. Maybe 'cause im not a fan ? Anyway, maybe I like him aft all. Aft seeing this vid a few days ago. ♥

(edited)

and I pray
I just can't sleep tonight,
knowing that things ain't right,
It's in the papers; it's on the TV; it's everywhere that I go
Children are crying
Soldiers are dying
some people don't have a home
But I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey
Can you tell me how I can make a change
I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight.
Am I a sinner? Cause of my dinner, is still there on my plate.
Oooo I got a vision, to make a difference.
And it's starting today.
Cause I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain
Heaven tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and...
I pray for the broken-hearted.
I pray for the life not started.
I pray for all the ones not breathing.
I pray for all the souls in need.
I pray. Can you give em one today?
I just can't sleep tonight
Can someone tell how to make a change?

I close my eyes and pray

Maybe this is one of th reasons I wna be a psychologist. At least some burdens will be lessen. Hehe.

out and about

2010-12-01T21:22:00.014+08:00

HAHA. We logged on at th same time, and didnt realise at first. Funneh.

Im just so lazy to update but, as far as I can recall..

last few wks ive got a really fcuked up sleeping pattern. Sleep at 8am to aft and have late long calls w Azyan & others. But it has improved now. :D

Been gg alot to sk too. Kite flying. To Mel's hse pianoing, just hanging out.

Ohyeah, went vivo and shopped alot.

Been gg out w Deb & her mum.

Been hanging out w TASH4. I hope I can be there when they do a cover one day.

W Clara too. I miss her as my neighbour ! I really do. D:

Camped at PRP a few times. Only hate th sandflies. Ugh.

Watched Harry Potter w ASS.H at town, then ate at Simpang Bedok. Reached hme at 1am. I love love HP. Yeay.

Went out w Harita aft for so long ! Lunch at Delifrance was so kecohxz.

Recently, went to expo for Mega Flea Market, and also IT fair w Deb, Azyan & Hud.

And I worked for th first time ever. Sales was not as gd, but pay was alright really. Thanks Sab.

Siti sometimes go my hse. And once, omgg, I didnt wake up and she waited an h outside. My neighbour even offered her this soya bean. I feel so bad. ):

and im now involve in sec1 camp, idk what i got myself into, except for my CIP pts.. nvm, gna do what I can.

So tmrrw fam outing to town to watch Narnia, and have a shot at photography. Hah.

Dk whether still gg Sentosa for th festival.

I hope ASS.H2 outing will be on.

And Im looking forward to TASH4 outing to zoo. :D

Omg, im really updating ppl. :/ that's enoughhhh.

But each outing, I really had fun, only lazy to elaborate each outing so yeah.

So, I send my love to all my friends, bestf out there. :* muah.

psst. I know i know, that's a clubpenguin tab. Sorry, I couldnt resist my.. childish needs, so. Um, just kidding really, some days I was sooooo bored, I actlly considered these things. I wasnt a game person at all, if you know me. I suck at them, actlly. Used to, and maybe will agn. Heh.

flash

2010-11-29T09:12:00.003+08:00

I got a freaking new cool baby.

Luv my mum & stepdad lots and lots and lots. Ofc not forgetting my Dad too tho'.

will update my days in next post soon, i hope.

follow me~

2010-11-24T09:26:00.007+08:00

www.a-elleiayh.tumblr.com
However lame it is, or you dislike it, do me a favour and follow 'cause Ive got a single-digit num of followers right now.
You may alrdy know th picts I used in this blog are from tumblr. Ive got a number of interesting ones and I dont rmmbr th urls, so.
I just created it ~~yest~~ today. I didnt sleep th whole night agn, so I became pretty bored, duh, and made one. Also thanks to Azyan. This routine also makes me confused and lose track of day.

Anywayy, aft for not jogging for like whaaaaat, 2 or 3 mths , my leg muscles are hurting from running a little over 200 laps in my living rm. Yeah, it's stupid but it's true. Im not th type of super self-conscious person, so it's also true Ive grown fat-ter, hence bigger, thus flabbier, meaning awkward-er. I feel lazy, and disgusting w all this protruding flabs. :L

Okaaay, gna buy BK breakfast ! I feel so good, gg out early in th morn which is unusual for me. (altho im eating fatty food right aft 'excercising')

Enjoy ! I know Ive been blogging abt what's on my mind and random stuff, but Ill give a brief update on my hols so far soon. Cheers.

diff issue from previous btw

2010-11-24T00:22:00.009+08:00

Im not over it. Yeah.

I guess your freaking words cut too deep. I've been ignoring but now I can't since I realise you'll only come running when you're in need. But you don't give a damn when we're caught in a rough sttn instead make things worse by shooting your mouth off w/o finding out more, even though they're super close to you. I've been patient enough w your selfcentredness. I've got feelings too, and I'm not a toy that you can throw away anytime or take it back whenever you need a company to hug at night just to make yourself feel better.

But rmmbr I was always there for you. But you weren't. So be fair, I need time to embrace it that's all.

over a year

2010-11-23T06:48:00.006+08:00

Sometimes staying awake all night can lead to emotional distress. Laughs. So ta-da, w nth else to do, this is composed and thus born:

Time creeps like a tangled vine
Looking back, all was long gone
But this heart of mine
Beyond broken, scars the bygone

Ordeal haunts day and night
Hurt stays immense
Hope always blight
No one caring to break down the pretense

Even the closest friends or kin
Ignores, closes one eye
And never tries to look in
Without giving warmth and went by

Now without you beside
The world can be really cold
With no flesh and blood to confide
Only darkness enfold

Life goes on, everything else in tow
Everything changes
You just got to go with the flow
For no one cares to heal your damages

Hence gather everything together
Hide them safe inside
You know he don't want to see you suffer
So carry on with a smile too wide

beautiful

2010-11-22T03:28:00.005+08:00

positivity

2010-11-19T17:17:00.006+08:00

Okay, fine. I take back my words. 3C, it shall be. Hm.

No pure Bio. At least, Ive got Harita, HHH +, and make new friends. (lol)

Siti, Syazana, Hidayah & Jeeyann all can have an awesome time w 2D. Oh well.

Whatever, Im thankful for getting into 2B'10. They rawk.
K Im gna buy revision bks soon.

......and always make th best out of everything. Peace yaw. Winks.

whom i can relate w

2010-11-17T01:10:00.010+08:00

"I don't think anyone ever always has super, perfect, happy life situations, but you can still be happy with your life despite the challenges."

"I try to think about why I feel that way. Instead of just walking around with that thorn in my side, I'll stop, find it, and get it out."

"There's always something good in each day and it's important to pay attention to those things."

-David Archuleta

It's really up to you. Blaming entirely on th cause, w/o doing anything, and making yourself feel even worse is just th most stupidest thing to do ever. Do sth, make it go away. Or just be strong and get on w life.

Another one I really admire. I dont have many yaw. He's so positive, and keep a cheerful air ard him, I loveeee. David Archuleta ♥♥♥♥.

& he's nvr been in a relationship, just fyi.

I knowwww, usually I dont blogg about my idols, but now ta-da. Still, I dont go hardcore abt them, like what, some RPatt fans (last time) and I dont have alot. But when I do, I truly do admire them. But thanks to my boredom, there'll be more in future, and Ill be really active in near future. Hoho. Stay tuned !

sure knowledge's limited till upon death

2010-11-16T02:19:00.005+08:00

It will.
& things aft that ? Maybe, maybe not. We never knew. Only spiritually for some.
Big pictures can be truly frightening at times. & so, we live in denial, one way or the other.

Well, just thinking.

suck up your own drama

2010-11-15T03:29:00.000+08:00

Heckyeah, I'm living everyday.

confidante

2010-11-15T03:24:00.000+08:00

HEYYAW

2010-11-13T01:08:00.003+08:00

Gna make this short & sweet.
So far, Ive not blogged that Ive got a new hp, aye. Initially I wanted a simple one, but I really luv my current hp. Gna take gd care alrdy, and not throw it ard.
&, Deb's gg to Phuket w us during March holidays ! That is, if her postponed trip doesn't clash. Let's just hope it won't.
Ill stop here. So far, great news ? :L
:D

lazy to upload picts nowadays

2010-11-08T00:27:00.003+08:00

DSLR camera / electronic piano ?

I flew a kite for th first time ever todayyy btw.

Michaevin

2010-11-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

I love him. :DDDD

And ofc his dad. :D

I didnt know he was actlly lame, until i watch th yt vids, but I still am a big fan.

He's so cute, cheerful and 'serious', I like.

Watch them in AR. :DDDD

Watching th vids just makes me happy by laughing at th most lamest thing ever which usually turns me off.

HEHEHEHEHEHE.

Rememberrrrrrrrrrr

2010-11-02T12:23:00.002+08:00

As asked, and I personally find it annoying at times,

you can now stop my music player. Yayyy.

Just below th green heading, there's th player. Click on th small downwards arrow and then click on th screen just above the backwards button in th player.

There you go. :D

RIP DNWJ

2010-11-01T15:56:00.005+08:00

"A 19-year-old youth repeatedly hacked by a group of youths in full view of a crowd died in hospital hours later. The violent attack and subsequent attempt by the youth and his friends to flee left a 500m long trail of blood at the Pasir Ris resort and amusement park. No one has been arrested and police have classified the case as murder. Darren Ng Wei Jie was with two friends when they got into a 'staring incident' with a group of about 10 teenagers. Witnesses The Straits Times spoke to said the encounter started with angry words, but this descended into a punch-fest on the lawn just outside fast-food restaurant MacDonald's.It is believed Darren's attacker produced a chopper and slashed him several times. The bleeding teenager and his friends tried to escape by running towards a row of indoor restaurants and shops called The Alley.The dead youth is believed to have been in his third year at Republic Polytechnic and also in its water polo team. Anyone with information may call the police at 1800-255-0000."

~~Water polo, 'quite good-looking'. Kidding.~~

I saw th trail of blood. Prayes are w me anw. XO.

Im sad, Idk why. :o

Anw, DTE -> bowled -> BBQ -> camp overnight.

Lazy to describe further. (;

nov hols

2010-10-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

First day of hols, and Im already rotting.

I was so bored I drew lots of cartoons, youtubing, researching etc etc etc etc etc.

I can't wait for 19th anw.

Class results'll be out. I already keyed in yest B then C then D then E.

I wish myself all th best, hah.

And that we'll have fun tmrw.

Cheers.